lifeless~

life is never fair. live with it

2010-02-20T10:11:00.000-08:00

hi blog!! didnt blog fr 2 years. cool.
anw i forgotten i had a blog until i saw a link from zuer.
alright!!
2 years ago. u were mine. 2 years later u are not.
life come in a cycle.
sometimes. u dwant some thing to happen. but u have to because u dont wan another thing to happen

1st blog after 1 yr

2008-06-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

well.. i jus my blog is dead.. i hope it is .. so i can blog wadevr i wan and no 1 cares..
well.. things went lousily since may .. i dun noe y suddenly everythin went so UNSMOOTH..
had all sorts of nonsences ..
ehh..
ok lets start wif the angela tickets .. i paid 30% more without even noeing ..
zzzzz and it was lik 80 odd$$
after tt .. my tone of sms 2 flirt .. then let ppl thought tt i wan 2 flirt ..
then spread rumors .. sae tis sae tt..
then had nonsence wif sylvia ..
tiss tt ....................................
then ppl come scold mi ..
all ur fault larhhs.... then scold scold ... macham the world dooms dae also my fault
then ... ai ya .. everythin veri suay jiu dui le .. i also dun noe y .. though some were my fault budden some are not wad .. hw come everythin also sae mi when no 1 knows mi ..
whn no 1 even get 2 my hart .. although i hope no 1 to come 2 my blog .. i still wan 2 vent my stress here..
GOD .. pls help mi will u ?
can u jus gimme the chance to change ?? i realli want to change .
tell mi what 2 do in my drms will uu ?
ah gong .. see ur sun so shi bai u will at there diu lian anot ?
if yes can u bring mi up wif u ? bring mi go find jesus ..
i think i realli hav mental problems ..
i hav extreme low IQ & EQ now ..
ah gong ar ah gong .. bring mi up la .. pls ..
can u jus pls pls pls pls let mi sleep 2 death ..
at least .. die peacefulli

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2007-12-01T16:59:00.001-08:00

ehh . peeps .
nt blogin anymore ..
is BORING EVEN TO BLOG
no tyme at all ..
byebye ..

sry yimin! huan! n those who yiming jio out !

2007-10-15T17:36:00.000-07:00

LOLS.. kana scolding by ALOT ppl sae iie nv post everydae.
iit try larhhs .
budden iie lazy marhhs..
=x
ehh .huan n yimin .. sry lehh ..
bu shi gu yi dehhs ..
iie was thinking a .. raining liao hor .. then i ho jio josh out ..
srysry didnt inform uue asap ..
ehhs .. realli sry bout ytd ..
hm ..2dae ..
now onli 8.38 am !
had a veri bad drm tt woke mi up ..
or rather sad drm ..
in the drm .. i had tis gurl frien tt iiie reali realli love ..
N I SAID IN THE DRM
has to go away or rather .. I DUN NOE ..
SHE IS JUZ LEAVING MI
iie was so sad n of cos she also sad la.. she nt sad i slap her..
LOLS JOKIN JOKIN ..
then in the drm she loves tamiya .. im sure all guys noe wad issit
iie helped her make the tamiya which SUPPOSE 2 b the best
n i rmb tellin her tt! I SERIOUSLY RMB! '' tis might b the 1st n last gift im giving u"
SAD RYTE .. HAIYO ...
then iie waalk her 2 somewhere i dun noe where issit .. is in a drm .. i started frm tampines mrt station n i had a fcukin long walk wif her n i end up in the same mrt station ..
then as we were SUPPOSE 2 b veri lovin couples ..
we had an veri passionate kiss ..WHICH I NV HAD B4!!!
n i accompany her 2 tis place she is suppose 2 go ..
then i woke up ..
then teared .. iie noe sounds stupid ..
budden if uue hav the kind of drm im sure u will tear alsoo!

no exxam liao

2007-10-12T19:56:00.000-07:00

LOLS~
i need yuanyuan 2 tell mi my LONG LOST blog link!
THX YUANYUAN . AHAHAHAHS~~~
phew ..
giv gave out multiple comments!
tired ..
finalli exams over!
every1 party!!!
weeeeeeeeeets ..~
oloevels de yao jia you~
wuyu!!!! stay back accompany mi n ming hao n dennis n bonian ba!!!
ahahahahahahs ..
sian ...
ehh..
go my frirendster giv pitc comment ..
thx!!
ahahahs ..
end here ba ..

2007-09-29T05:59:00.000-07:00

yo ! back 2 blog 2dae!!
wahahahs ..
didnt touch my blog fr 1 month!!!!!
hmmm..
nt bad lehh ...
haiis ..
tis 1 month lik so many things happen sia ..
haiis ..
i dun noe wad 2 sae larhhs ..
exam is in 2 daes tyme ..
every1 jia you okkays ??
weeeeets ..
gonna score fr my chem ..!! eng!! chinese !! s.s!! f&n!! e-math!!
others i will try my best ! haha!
didnt blog fr awhile cos no 1 come n view ..
nort bad~
2 person juz tag mi ! haha!!!!!
ermms ..
okay ..
i wan go du shu liao ..
byebye every1 ..

sick~~

2007-08-13T23:14:00.001-07:00

wa..
so long nv blog liao..
sry guys ..
budden also no 1 come in dehhx marhh .
ahaha..
lets summarise 2 dae in sch huh..
2dae go sch .. nort feelin well..
then vomit..zzzzz so eeeeee..
then ccr plae wif miie..
in my painess n anger ..
i shouted at him then he angry go away ..
sry bro..
dint mean that ..
then as usual plae wif PGPP n ms cher..
ltr .. ms goh class chem .. as usual ..
next supposingly is SS budden mr wee nv come then malek take us ..
gave us a speech ..
veri useful..
will b using it.. thx mr malek..
recess..
borrow money frm bonian..
DIDNT WANTED 2!! 2DAE BORROW ALOT MONEY SIA ..
ALL BCOS OF TT CAR THAT EXPLODED RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE ..
THEN NO BUS SERVICE AT ALl!!!!! NO BUS AT ALL! TAKE CAB 2 SCH PAY UNCLE AL THE MONEY! !@#$%^&* !@#$%^&* !@#$%^&* SO SIAN SRY GUYS TT I BORROWED UR MONEY WILL RETURN 2 MOLO MORNING..
after recess is e math .. cos zhi yings 30 cents ..ahaha..she stew veri short sia .. haiss.. poor thing
after math is chinese.. so sian .. nothing 2 do de .. tt teacher still scare mi..
supposing now should b having A-math but mr malek sry hor..
i realli nort feeling well ..
uue will b askin nort feelin well y stew use comp rite..
cos i need do ur math de blog i think i frgortten 2 do .. but i blog mine 1st ..
haiis ..
so sad..
tts all!! view miie leh~~~

my hp arrr~~~~~

2007-07-23T03:08:00.000-07:00

2dae my hp kana make internal crack my jia le again ..
.... idoit ..
plae lar.. plae some more..
nw need pay ..
see lar .. wa lau a....
jia le ...
sua lar..
dun wan suan u ler..
ltr my hand break..

15/7 ah gong left

2007-07-15T02:37:00.000-07:00

ah gong ..
2dae we sent u out ..
we send u to ur home town .. to somewhere u said u will b goin
i dun noe wads down there but i seriously wish that u will b happi there
i folded u ur boat cos i noe tt u were once a sailor
im realli upsad to send u off u noe ?
the pain that i am havin is enough fr mi to kill some1
we send u off .. but we are utterly upset ..
i noe that nohing can let u come back as a piece
but i realli do hope that u can come every night
in my drms to tok to mi ..
ur last wish is fr mi to study hard ..
i will .. dun worry about mi n go in peace ..
u are such a gd man that so many people came to sent u off u noe ?
2dae .. er jie saw someone whose backview looks lik u and we tot that u came back to take a look at us ..
but there is something i can comfirm
i noe that the butterfly is u ..
it has been there fr all the 5 daes and when we chu ping the butterfly fly pass and flew away
i noe that it is u who wants to check it out on us ..
without u , life has to go on but i realli dun noe how to go ..
can u pls come to mi every every every night to tell mi wad to do ..
come to let mi noe that u r always there when i need u
after 15 years , the impact has finalli hit mi .. and infact a direct heartshot ..
i will try to take good care of myself and i will still
always always always always always always wish that u could come in my drm ..
hope that u will lik the house that we gave u and all the money that we sent to u
byee ah gong .. u will always be remembered n u will always stay in my heart ..
no one could replace u ..

12/7 ah gong funeral

2007-07-12T09:02:00.000-07:00

2dae went to my ah gong funeral ..
uue noe how sad it is 2 see ur love 1 go ?
he is sometymes even closer then my parents ..
i would nv imagine that he qould go so early ..
last week ..
we went 2 buy drinks fr mi ready fr mi to go his house
tuesdae.. i drink 1 can .. he was ok then ..
but he juz go on the wed..
he has love mi so much that it realli hurts when i see him in the hospital n when i saw him.. dead..
ah gong ..
y u leave mi alone .. u noe how painful it is when i was carryin ur body?
ihad 2 surpress all my emotions becos i scared that if i break down everyone will..
u noe that if i go it is much less painful for mi ?
i cried myself 2 sleep tis 2 daes do u noe that ?
i noe that u do .. becos u are lookin after mi up there
all that u hav done will nort b forgortten my mi
all that u hav sacrifice fr mi and all the care n concern u hav given mi
i noe that ur last will is fr mi 2 study hard..
i wil.. dun worry.. i will show people wad ur grandson is capable of ..
bye ah gong .. i love u ..